STORY: Journal of a LONER

A hot summer day. Everyone is outside. Taking in the bright rays with their many friends. THe must like having those people around them. I see people as a hinderance on my own progression. They will hurt you repeatedly. People make me want to be a supervillain in the worst way.  People only bring chaos whereever they go. The wilderness would still be here if it wasn’t for the human sickness of greed. My name, Don’t worry about my name. I am a great person. Noone deserves my time. THey only waste it in the end. This world is a nasty cycle of dirty humans doing horrible things. THey will never accept a good person. Don will never accept them. My walls are up and will never come down.

Decisiveness and the Power in it!


Decisiveness is the ability to make decisions quickly and effectively. Decisiveness is great in life. Decisiveness keeps the indecisive behind you in life. The fact that you can make decisions makes you seem god-like. So many people want to be lead to success. They feel they need some acceptance from the outside to make a decision. Be it building their bodies up for the fitness test. They want people to accept their decision to build a business. They won’t ever make that decision themselves. People that are lazy hustlers are constantly building and make their decisions by them and extensions of them. They make themselves better themselves and buld each other. Decisiveness builds this persona up in people. It tells them to make their next move. One way to build decisiveness in yourself is to be spontaineous. Go with the first thing that comes to mind. See what your body is telling you to do. Keep being spontaineous and see where it takes you. If you are a reserved person, be more outgoing. If you are a outgoing person, be less outgoing. Change it up. You will see every decision from both sides. This can be your safety in decisiveness! Keep it growing and going.
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The Curse of the Fearful!

Fearfulness is a curse. In a world full of villains and manipulators. Fearfulness is the worst thing to be. Fearfulness makes it impossible for you to help anyone. Fear makes you run or freeze in place. It is a basic function of the lizard brain. Fear told you if a dinosaur was too big for you to bring home for your family. Fear told you to stay in the house at night because wolves may be out their waiting for you. When you felt fear, it was for a good cause. Nowadays we have fear of basic things, Fear of rejection, fear of misunderstanding, and fear of embarrassment. Are these really things to be fearful of?  Are they life threatening? None of the fears I listed are going to end your life. Unless you have a weird thing where your body shuts down at the sign of these things. THen you should get that checked out. The fearful are scared to put themselves out there. This is why success avoids them like the plague. It’s like when you feel thirsty, When  you feel thirsty you get the glass of water. THis is how you should treat all endeavors in life. If you want that gorgeous person across from you. Talk to them. THe ever fearful only see the bad. They see failure as the only option with anything in life. Let’s change this fear into discernment. Discernment separates the sheep from the lion. Discernment takes in both sides of the arguement and measures the risk and reward. SOme people never try sushi because they see it as raw fish. The raw fish argument comes from the ever fear inducing tv. The discerning hear this and try sushi for the first time and love it. This is what separates the fearful from the discerning. Discerning take the best risk for them. The fearful stay stationary, never moving. This is scary in itself. The fearful will see a person getting harmed for something petty, and do nothing. The inaction becomes guilt. Then the guilt becomes more inaction. Because fear took over again. One nasty cycle of inaction. Then you look around and see gray hairs with nothing to show for it. Old age with death knocking at your door. With a life of mediocrity to show people in your life book. 

                                                                     

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How to Gauge Hubris!

Hubris, some see it as a gift and some see it as an opposition. The ones who see it as a gift use it as such. They make hubris work to better the lives of others or help empower people in their community. They see hubris as a way to build self confidence in the person that is oppresed daily. Always improving because they have accepted themselves and want to help others.

The ones that are against hubris want to control the hubris filled person. These people hate the confident person with self-respect and abundant self-confidence. The will try to bring them down. They will treat the confident person lower than them because they fear being stood up to. They hate to see the confident person achieving greatness, doing things their own way. This is where bullying comes in. The bully hates seeing one of their victims getting up on their own and seeing their worth. The bully needs a punching bag to vent their lack of self-confidence. When the “hubris” filled person stands up to them they see  the truth in their false confidence. They see they are weak.

Hubris should be used wisely. I use my hubris when someone want to bully me and make me feel smaller as a person. Hubris is a great armor and weapon. When people try to belittle you, hubris makes you stand up for yourself. If hubris wasn’t their you would become encumbered by others petty problems. They would use you as a place to vent their problems but instead of talking to you. they will treat you less than you deserve.

USE HUBRIS AS A WEAPON AND AS ARMOR!

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What is your purpose? I’ll tell you mine if you don’t mind


Hello beautiful people it’s your favorite blogger. Haha. Lets talk about our purpose on this earth. If you read purpose as porpoise then you may have a problem. Purpose is the reason something is done or created or for which something happens. This means you woke up for a purpose this morning. You may not know right now but if you do comment below. The purpose for your life can influence and inspire others. You can be the first at something. You could be the best at improving others lives or better yet telling stories. When you find your pupose you can inspire millions of people to do better because of you. 

  When I wrote my first book, I showed many people it wasn’t impossible to make one. I even had someone chase me down to get the answers. This really touched my heart because I was constantly beaten down most of my adult life. I was told to not look my supervisors in the eye. They would tell me I was worthless not even a human. The world felt like it was crashing. I was nothing but a bug to a boot about to fall. Then I found my purpose and gift. I knew I was supposed to the “different” guy in every situation. 

   I look back on my life and see myself like that one episode of spongebob. The episode where he tried to be normal. I would mimic the people I thought were normal. The people the world loved and never hurt. The people that were accepted by everyone. I wanted that for a long time because I didn’t know my worth. I felt like I would never achieve anything in life or be anything, unless I copied the accepted people. Then something told me to do my research. In my research of the most influential/powerful people. I noticed most of them were considered oddballs. Some were made fun of and told they would never achieve anything. Then I heard a voice tell me to go the gym.

I went to the gym and saw someone struggling to lift a very heavy weight. I went to help them but they told me to back off. I did and watched the weight fall on their chest. They exhaled from the weight hitting them so hard. I tried to hold my laughter back because I felt that’s what they get for not letting me help them. Then I looked at myself differently. I saw myself as the perpetrator of an assault on someones self-confidence. If I didn’t inspire them to lift for their betterment, why should I keep feeling like hero? 

I boldly helped them lift the weight off their chest. They were relieved to have someone help them. I had to shrug it off. I wasn’t going to kill the vibe. I told them to try it again. They told me no never again. THen I looked them directly in the eye and said try it again, I believe in you. They layed back on that bench press and i helped them take the weight off the rack. THey then proceeded to struggle again. I told them to think about the most valued member of your family under a rock or a car, and you are the only person there to get it off of them. The person kept struggling until I said. “Life is leaving their eyes!” They picked the weight up so fast it almost went through the ceiling. I had to step back. THEN I KNEW I FOUND MY PURPOSE!!

MY PURPOSE IS TO INSPIRE AND EMPOWER!!

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Why I admire Batman and real-life heroes like him!

   Batman is a super strong superhero at his human peak. He is able to think his way out of any situation and appear bigger and stronger than he actually is. Batman is one of the most recognized comic book heroes of any genre. He fits in to any type of story and is usually the most memorable part.

I admire Batman because in any appearance he is memorable. I feel he is memorable because he takes many risk in solving a case. Batman has gone as far as punching superman coming at him at mach speeds. He broke his hand of course but he took the chance. Batman is written as a mortal man but he achieves great things. He has been shown taking out the smartest and the strongest villains and barely break a sweat. When Batman shows up people know he is there. He has presence.

There are many people in the real world that have presence. This makes them admirable in my book because they seem to have power even without it. This also can be seen as a certain confidence. They don’t ask to be in the room. They enter the room and bring the energy.

It has been said that leadership and public speaking scare people. Batman and so many people in real life are born leaders or learned from the best. Batman has the respect of so many people more powerful than him because they know he is a strategic badass. Batman just has that presence of power. He always figures out a way to take down his foes.

Knowledge and never giving up is everyone’s superpower in this world. So learn to cultivate it and build a better tomorrow!

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Hello Beautiful People!

Hello Beautiful People, My name is Durrell and I am the owner of Ultra Diesel Time. I am a publisher, podcast host, speaker, comedian, and empower-er. I want anyone who visits my page to be inspired to better themselves and their lives. I have been through it in life. I have been bullied for looking different, called worthless on several occasions, drank myself silly, felt pain, etc. I have improved since then and have my experinces detailed in my book The Lazy Man’s Hustle.(link:http://a.co/7pEt7Qp) There is always time to improve yourself and your community. Please hit the contact page and tell me how you want to improve yourself and others and I will help every step of the way.1_2_